My hiatus from my blog is officially over! Now that I've got all of my applications for pre-graduate school in, I can get back to my 'real life'. Which does not include a constant state of editing of papers and photos, organizing print outs or checking due dates.
Yesterday I celebrated the return of my normal schedule and the completion of my first steps of becoming an adult, with fresh flowers, cleaning and having a general sense of non-panic. I even cleaned up my desktop!
I've been thinking about all of that lately, the whole cleaning out the bad or old things to make room for the new ones. I'm pretty sure my desktop and studio are acting as the visual reference for what is also going on in my personal life.
I have images of art work I made freshman year still saved on my computer...why? I would never show that work to a gallery or even to a friend. (Clarification: the work is not good.) So I'm dragging all of that into my trash can and letting go of it. As for the metaphor I'm making,(if you haven't noticed, I have the ability to make anything into a metaphor) why do I need to keep things around that do not make me happy, benefit me in a positive way or even want me there as an 'owner'? (owner is not the best word but in the spirit of my metaphor, we're gonna keep it.) That is such a sad thing to think...just to let go of something that once was a bright spot. But it has to be done for the well being of me and for space to be open up for the new things that are coming my way. It is refreshing. It feels clean. It feels more...sane.
*Sometimes I feel like a crazy person every minute of the day, so this whole feeling sane thing is big.
Here are some photos of my super clean, super cute studio.
Fresh flowers in a vintage beaker...yes. A million times yes.
Today I will enjoy my clean studio, my clean desktop and my worry free mind set. It is going to be a lovely time.
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